When you hurt my feelings..

I have been debating rather I should blog about this or not over the last week. Well today as I sit here and it still is making me mad I have decided to blog.

This weekend two different people hurt my feelings so bad I can't decide if I even want to forgive them or not. God tells us to forgive and forgiving one will be easier than forgiving the other.

Person 1:
Almost 8 years ago I was pregnant with my little bundle of joy that I couldn't wait to meet. At this time we didn't know anything was wrong with him. All I know is that I was about to be a mom for the first time and I couldn't wait to see his face. This said person said if I ever had a ugly or retarded baby I don't think I would love it. Well how selfish of you. Since Malachi has been born this has hurt me more and more everyday since he is the reason I breathe. This person was young and clearly had no understanding on what that did to me or even probably what she said. The fact is she said it, and it hurt. She can't take it back. This weekend this person came back for a visit and again did something to hurt my feelings. I take great pride in my photography. Never said I was a professional but I try and be very mindful when I post pictures of people who are particular on what is posted.  She got mad and made a hateful comment so I deleted all photos. I feel like this person should no longer be a part of my life. I love her but I don't want to wait until the next time she says something to hurt my feelings. I have always felt like since Malachi was born she treated me differently because of him. Well its her loss. He is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I wouldn't trade him in for the world.

Person 2:
When you tell someone you are going to do something, then its customary to do what you said to the best of your ability. If something comes up that makes it where you can't do what you say that is understandable but not when you make it so obvious that you never had any intentions to begin with. As parents of a special needs child Mike and I don't get the luxury have getting out as a "couple" very often. We don't get to just ask someone to watch our child. He is different we want people that can roll with the punches. We had the opportunity to go to a friends wedding and reception together for the evening and have a good time. Because Malachi doesn't understand all the people and it over stimulates him we decided to find a sitter.  When you ask someone and they tell you yes and then back out so they can go do something else that could have waited till the next day (not an emergency) it makes you stop and think. Why did they all of sudden change their mind. Is it Malachi. Is he a burden? I know that I never want Malachi to feel like he is a burden and because of this, I will never ask this person to watch him again. EVER!

As you can see I am still pretty angry. I just don't understand people sometimes. I just hope and pray that they never feel the hurt that they caused me this weekend.

Sorry if this offends anyone. Its my blog and its about me, so I blogged. God Bless.