Where I stand..

About one month ago, my husband called on his way home from work and tells me he is done. He is done with our relationship. I am not going to lie I didn't see it coming. I moved in with my parents. I lived there for three weeks and he only wanted to see Malachi twice. On Father's Day weekend I moved home and have been here ever since. But things are not fixed. He still wants a divorce.
I have had time to pray and think and this is where I stand. I love him. I am not giving up and I am believing in a miracle. I am laying this at the foot of the cross. Only God can change what needs to be changed. Some of you may disagree but I know what God wants, and for us to be divorced is not what God wants. So for all my prayer warriors, listen to God and pray where God is leading you to pray when it comes to this. I am have much faith. I have good and bad days but I am not giving up.

I have been reading the Power of A Praying Wife by Stormie Omartian and this is one of the prayers that I have been praying. There are a lot of prayers that I have been praying. I am usually all drama queen like and let everyone in my business but this time its different. With this I hope to be a testimony to anyone regardless of the outcome.

His Wife~
Lord, Help me to be a good wife. I fully realize that I don't have what it takes to be one without Your help. Take my selfishness, impatience and irritability and turn them into kindness, long-suffering and the willingness to bear all things. Take my old emotional habits, mindsets, automatic reactions, rude assumption and self-protective stance and make me patience, kind, good, faithful, gentle and self-controlled. Take the hardness of my heart and break down the walls with Your battering ram of revelation. Give me a new heart and work in me Your love, peace and joy. I am not able to rise above who I am at this moment. Only You can transform me.
Show me where there is sin in my heart, especially with regard to my husband. I confess the times I've been unloving, critical, angry, resentful, disrespectful, or unforgiving toward him. Help me to put aside any hurt, anger or disappointment I feel and forgive him the way You do-totally and completely, no looking back. Make me a tool of reconciliation, peace and healing in this marriage. Enable us to communicate well and rescue us from the threshold of separation where the realities of divorce begin.
Make me my husband's helpmate, companion, champion, friend and support. Help me to create a peaceful, restful, safe place for him to come home to. Teach me how to take care of myself and stay attractive to him. Grow me into a creative, confident woman who is rich in mind, soul and spirit. Make me the kind of woman he can be proud to say is his wife.
I lay all my expectation at Your cross. I release my husband from the burden of fulfilling me in areas where I should be looking to You. Help me to accept him the way he is and not try to change him. I realize that in some ways he may never change, but at the same time, I release him to change in ways I thought he never could. I leave any changing that needs to be done in Your hands, fully accepting that neither of us is perfect and never will be. Only You, Lord, are perfect and I look to You to perfect us. Teach me how to pray for my husband and make my prayers a true language of love. Where love has died, create a new love between us. Show me what unconditional love really is and how to communicate in a way he can clearly perceive. Bring unity between us so that we can be in agreement about everything. May the God of patience and comfort grant us to be like-minded toward one another, according to Christ Jesus. Make us a team, not pursuing separate, competitive, or independent lives, but working together overlooking each others faults and weaknesses for the greater good of the marriage. Help us to pursue the things which make for peace, and the things by which one may edify each other. May we be "perfectly joined together in the same mind and in the same judgement". I pray that our commitment to You, and to one another will grow stronger and more passionate every day. Enable him to be head of the home as You made him to be, and show me how to support and respect him as he rises to that place of leadership. Help me to understand his dream, and see things from his perspective. Reveal to me what he wants and needs and show me potential problems before the arise. Breathe your life into this marriage. Make me a new person, Lord. Give me a fresh perspective, a positive outlook and a renewed relationship with this man You've given me. Help me to see him with new eyes, new appreciation, new love, new compassion, and new acceptance. Give my husband a new wife and let it be me.

Amen


~The Power of A Praying Wife by Stormie Omartian~